az_fell: (dubious)
Aziraphale, although not the most self-aware being in the history of Creation, is self-aware enough to know that he's being petulant1. He doesn't need to eat, drink, or do any of the things that are generally required to sustain a human body. He's not even supposed to want to do any of those things. The fact that he does is immaterial.

If wishes were horses, et cetera, et cetera. Unfortunately, supposed to has become an increasingly slippery concept throughout the many thousands of years of his existence. And, perhaps even more unfortunately, Aziraphale would go to increasingly un-angelic lengths, at this juncture, for a restaurant-quality meal. Crowley is doing his best, because of course he is2, but Aziraphale would really like not to see another packet of crisps or McDonald's cheeseburger anytime soon. Ideally, anytime ever.

Somewhat melancholy, he's sitting in the library and paging through an equally melancholy-looking copy of Ulysses. Reflexively, he's tried to miracle himself a drink, which is why there's an untouched can of Tab balanced on the arm of his chair.

1Also, it is technically possible to be self-aware about one's lack of self-awareness. There's a delicate balancing act going on here, all right? That's what an angelically expansive mind is for.
2Because Crowley is good, and kind, as skittish as he becomes around those facts.
az_fell: (a.z. fell)
Do angels brood? Or, perhaps more pertinently, can angels brood?1

If they do, or can, there's a reasonable potential that Aziraphale is brooding. Even in the very earliest days of his business partnership slash friendship with Crowley, the two of them had a certain understanding. The Arrangement could never have sprung into being if they hadn't been able to communicate without words about it, given that they weren't allowed to communicate with words about it.

Something, now, is off. It's worrying at the edges of Aziraphale's awareness like a very determined moth trapped in a closet full of musty clothing.

He stands in the kitchen, staring out the window at the rather bleak winter landscape outside. He's holding a cup of tea in his hands, but failing to remember to drink from it. Every now and then he recalls its existence and warms it again with a thought, then forgets it again.

1There is some sort of important philosophical distinction here surrounding the matter of what angels can do versus what angels should do versus what they, in actual fact, do. Maybe.

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